April 2020
I used to love apex more than anything in the world. It was a place I could go and just have fun. I'd never had an online friend before, but I was so into the thrill of going head first into a fight with insane abilities that could alter the tides of a battle if used correctly and at the right time. I found a friend by posting a looking for group because I loved to play as a valuable team member. When I went into battle, it was all up to me on what happened and who won. Everything that happened was fair and if I died it was because i did something wrong or my aim was off. If my teammate or Herky ( my friend) was down I could pull of an insane clutch and look cool for a few minutes. Apex made me want to better myself in ways that I didn't think I could. And I did get better in ways I never would have imagined. It helped me be a better teammate. Every game I played was nothing but fun, and I had the one game that was better than any other and would be the only game that I would have ever needed. I said I dont care how much the want for this game that if they changed it from being a free to play, I would still buy it because it was just that good. But now, it's all gone. Where did the game go that i woke up every morning at 7 in the morning just to have the honor of playing such a game go? Now I cant even play a normal game even with my friend. I have a .94 kd ratio and I'm put up against predators with 4.0 kd's . They take out the lobby, so we dont even get to fight and when we do, we dont even have a chance. I start every game expecting to die. It's not even worth trying to play anymore. There are predators in my gold ranked matches. My aim with the havoc is an insane laser now, but that doesn't matter. I finally accomplished my long sought out goal to have better aim, but it doesnt matter because I still cant have a good game even with all my hard work. This is the first time I've ever been truly disappointed in a game. What will I play now? I dont know, but I dont think I can take anymore of this. Apex was my dream come true, it was fair, it was fun, and best of all 90 percent of the time my death was my fault. Now my death is because I'm putt against players way above my capabilities and cheaters. I feel as if apex is a failure and it hurts my soul to say that about a game that I cared about so deeply, but I fear that it's no longer avoidable. Apex has literally made me cry today because I miss what was once a legendary game. Until apex is brought back to its former glory, #bring back the old ways #CombinedMars31